Not Amusing.
My friend and I were debating the merits of choice vs. addiction. I think most “addictions” are total crap. An excuse for people to continue doing things they know are unhealthy for them (whether physically or otherwise) and yet they still choose to do them. The Friend says there are certain things he avoids because he knows he will like them, and therefore get addicted and shirk other responsibilities and priorities.
I say, “Bullshit.” You *choose* to get off your ass and clean house, or you *choose* to sit on your ass and blog. I mean cruise the internet. Oh, whatever. Shut up.
He retorted (yes, retorted) “Ok, then cancel your internet connection.”
First of all, I should mention that we are no longer friends, simply for him having said something so crass and unforgiveable. Also, because God struck him down with a fiery bolt of lightning for such blasphemy. And I’m not even religious, so go figure.
Secondly, I’m not “addicted” ok?!
And then, in the cruelest of all ironies, I began having internet connectivity problems.
I totally blame him for it. Of course he’s dead and all, being struck by the lightning and everything, so I suppose I should have some respect for the dead. Then again he is my dead ex-friend so, I’m really confused about that part.
Meanwhile, I was like a junkie in need of a fix. I called The Friend (cell phones do work in hell, apparently) in a panic, trying to breathe all steady so he wouldn’t catch on. “Yeah man, this is fucked up! All the lights are green, yet I can’t get to anything. No email, no websites, nothing. I don’t know what to do. I need to get online.”
I am not addicted though. Just… dependent. I keep a lot of information online… so I can get to it no matter where I am. That’s all. See, that is so not an addiction. It’s just, like, a reference. Duh.
For now things seems to be stable. I do have the cable mainlined into JUST the modem, so I guess I go without tv in here for awhile. I would unplug the damn phone too if I knew it would guarantee connectivity. Hey, as long as I’m online, it’s cool. Because I use it as a reference. A lot. That’s the way I *choose* to do things.
