Subtle Glow

Didn’t I just get done saying I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions?

Yeah, well I don’t. Seriously. It just so happens, that Jan. 1 was on a Sunday this year. I do grocery shopping on Saturdays. Sunday is the perfect day to start making more healthy food choices, in an effort to maintain healthy eating habits. So it just worked out that way, really. All I really want to do every day is EAT HEALTHY!

ANY-way, today is day 3 and I think I’m actually going to make it to bedtime without binge eating anything. WOO! Sunday’s binge: garlic bread. Monday’s binge: popcorn. Aha - see how much better my binge of choice got in JUST ONE DAY?!

Today’s binge: NOTHING! I get to have one more snack later tonight if I feel like it. I must admit though, I was on the verge of a binge. I had just finished dinner and apparently the simple act of EATING seems to trigger a need to binge for me. I was rifling through the kitchen, trying to find the lowest calorie sweet I could find that would satisfy the urge. I had one of the kiddo’s packages of Mother’s frosted cookies in one hand, debating between that and a Skippy peanut butter fudge snack bar. Cookies: 210 calories, Snack Bar: 190.

Instead, I picked up the phone and used my mouth for talking instead of stuffing. Also a big drink of water helped, too. I got her voicemail and my message was something along the lines of: “Ok, I’m about to binge here, even though I just ate dinner and I am not hungry, I am only wanting to EAT EAT EAT so I’m just calling you now so I can hopefully avoid that. Talk to you later!”

I’m thinking from now on I will be staying on track - that it just took a couple days to settle in. In that case, I’d be happy to see a couple pounds gone by Sunday morning’s weight check.

Only now, after eating dinner and feeling full, do I realize I went in to the grocery store tonight with an empty stomach and allowed kiddo to choose all kinds of cookies and CRAP to pack in his lunches. Granted, there are crackers included in there but I really could have done way better. Lucky for me, he is the picture of a healthy, strong and well-proportioned child, who loves fruits and vegetables as well as sweets. Very Lucky for me. Honestly if he were an overweight child I would be shit out of luck when it came to trying to help him; I can’t even help myself. Yet.

I was going to do a year in review - an idea I wanted to steal from Joelle, but once I got to April I realized I don’t have the patience for it. I did bring over many of my archives from my old site, so now this one is pretty much up to date.

I just thought it worth mentioning that 2005 really sucked ass for a lot of people. I don’t know, but I get the general sense that everyone is pretty much ready to bid 2005 goodbye, with a middle-finger salute and an “Up Yours” as it makes it’s way out.

Except for me.

2005 was a banner year for me. It was awesome. I moved to really sweet little condo, and even though I’m still renting as opposed to owning, the rent was way less for a much nicer place. That helped get my finances on track, with the help of a friend, and with no help whatsoever from my cunt of a former boss.

I got a new (way better) job, doing work I really like doing. The job came with more pay, so the finances smoothed out even more. With the pay raise I was finally able to trade in my truck for a brand new 2006 corolla.

On top of all that - I have a special someone in my life, and our 1 year anniversary was New Year’s Eve.

So to recap the highlights: New Guy, New Place, New Job, MO Money, New Car. I have no complaints.

I had a really good feeling about 2005 coming in to it. I wish I could say the same for 2006, but for reasons I don’t know yet - I just can’t.

I also don’t bother making resolutions at New Year. I figure if it’s good enough to make a resolution about, well why not start right away? I do have goals (and a couple wishes) for this year:

1. Stay on track with my weight loss - keep going to the gym. I want some seriously VISIBLE results by my birthday in March.
2. Start saving for the trip to Italy next year.
3. For the wishlist: New boobs, and a new nose.
4. Buy a condo this summer, instead of moving into yet another rental.
5. Keep writing on a regular basis.
6. Knit a Sweater. Odd goal, I know - but I’d really like to move beyond the basic circle/square/rectangle knitting I’ve done so far.
7. Buy myself something nice for my birthday.
8. Keep the kiddo involved in sports/activities.
9. Get regular checkups (dentist, eye doc, etc) for me and kiddo.
10. Prioritize! Like, for instance, move #3 down to like #10 on the list. Or something.

Here’s hoping that 2006 is a great year for everyone!