LDR
My boyfriend is moving away in about two months. I have been avoiding this for at least the last six months, because A) I really don’t know what I’m supposed to do about it, and B) because for now he’s still here and I don’t want to waste time thinking about then when we’re still in the now.
I have subtly ignored any conversations about The Move up until now. I politely acknowledge comments about The Move and then Move On. This is what I love about him though - he knows. He knows I’m avoiding any chance of dealing with it, even though he keeps bringing it up. Meanwhile I’m thinking to myself: “Why does he keep bringing it up? Is he trying to rub it in that he’s leaving??” No. He wants to know I’m going to be able to deal with it, that I’ll be ok.
I knew eventually we would have to talk about it.
I don’t see why we can’t find a way to make this work. Long Distance Relationship. He wants to finish school - so we’re looking at 2 to 3 years of LDR. His initial response: Impossible.
Maybe it won’t work.
Maybe it will. Why not consider it? Why not try?
Maybe I’m stubborn. Ok, not maybe. Anyway.
For now, I’m swinging back and forth between sadness that this might really be over very soon - that I might be capable of love again but I don’t want to give up the love I already have, much less find another that I won’t always compare to him - and the stubborn will to not take no for an answer. To make him prove to me that if we both try to make it work that it wouldn’t. Because I won’t believe it until we at least try.
